Luahan hati....

Dear diary....where should i start 1st..ok, nak luahkan rasa hati...da la sorang kakak jm baru ni, br brp bulan kje..dia luahkan masalah dia n husband dia dgn aku, aku habaq la, aku x de experient dlm bab2 rmhtangga ni, since aku pn br jer kahwin, tu pn blum duk sama gan husband aku lg....so aku duk dgr jer la, kesian kan..aku just dpt advised byk bersabar, asam garam rmhtngga..gaduh2 skit tu biasa la...pernah dia minta tlg aku check email pompuan ln, tah kwn husband dia kot....awl pagi, aku msh tdo lg time dia dtg p rmh, sabar jer la...

mmg nmpk sgt dia de mslh, kje pn semua x btul...tp dia x blh la bw mslh rmhtngga dlm kje,br jer dpt pingat khidmat cemerlang tahun lps kat tmpt kje lama, so d pendekkan cerita...dia ni x reti nak simpan rahsia (mslah rmhtngga) dia, rata2 kwn2 dlm wad smua tahu yg dia de mslh dgn husband dia... student nurse pn dia cerita mslh dia...

then de la 1 day tu, mcm ari tu gak, awl pagi dia call, tny de x aku crita kat org lain mslh dia...sabar jer la, pe lagi aku serang la blk, dia x sedar ke, tah brp org dia dh crita mslh dia, time dia luahkan perasaan ari tu pn, bkn dia de tgk kiri kanan, masa nk crita, byk org ln yg dgr....terus-terang aku bgtau, de org lain yg crita mslh dia kat aku, haa....mcm mne org ln blh tau, kalau bkn dia sendiri yg crita....

dia x puas hati, dia p tanya staff2 lain, der x aku crita mslh dia dgn org ln...pelik, org yg x tau pn blh jd tau...haiyaaa....dia sendiri buka pekung di dada...bkn takat tu jer, dia p jmp sister, dia kata 1 hosp dah tau mslh dia dgn husband dia, dia tny sister msti dah tau, der x aku ni crita dgn sister, sister yg x tau pe2, dgr jer la...

pagi td, sister pnggil jmp dia kat office...terkejut gak aku bila sister crta pe yg kakak tu bgtau, dia habaq kat sister, yg aku crta gan org ln mslh dia...sister tau aku x bt mcm tu, sister sendiri pn x tau yg dia der mslh, yet dia bagitau sister yg aku dah crita dgn sister...astagfirullah...hampir berderai air mata, ni semua fitnah..sister pn tau aku x seperti pe yg di crta oleh kakak tu...ya Allah...sabar jer la, sister der nasihat dia, kalau x trust org ln, jgn luahkan masalah...betul tu...

mmg hebat dugaan utk aku...diary pe patut aku buat? patut ka aku jmp kakak tu, srh dia betulkan pe yg patut, or patut kah aku diam jer, biar masalah tu mcm tu jer...aku x nak msuk campur urusan rmhtngga org...

knp la aku yg jd mangsa?.....dugaan...

THE WORST DAY!

Mna nk mule yer? ok...as u know, aku salah sorang team H1N1...yesterday de la sister bg jadual baru n keep on asking me +ve or not, so bgtau la -ve but my meses is due..datang lg sorang sister, asking the same question...naik feedup gak sometime..
so d pendekkan cerita...next day nya, awl pagi aku g check klinik luar...crta smua la dgn doctor...mmg msh awl nk check HCG,pv spotting x3/7 and backache mybe sign or symptoms of miscarriage/normal memses, aku cuma risau kalau2 PID,also not sure ye,u/s done but no GS seeen, UPT weakly -ve....so his plan is to observe 1st, then try upt next 2/52, but if increase bleed n pain to see stat..
aku pegi la wad, kbtlan MO still buat discharge summary, aku bg la tunjuk MO referral letter dr doctor luar...dia suruh check UPT lg, so aku g la buat...dlm pada tu, der la senior aku ni, mmg terkenal dgn mulut lasernya n garangnya..sound,i'm to anscious, tu pasal la sakit sana sini,tu normal la,katanya relax jak la,jgn nak ngada ambil sick leave skrg nviroment changes katanya, tah pe2 la kakak tu, enviroment pe benda? Ya Allah..ujian utk aku, sabar...hampir menitis air mata,sabar...aku redah jak,buat dek
dah dapat result, aku balik..on d way balik, dalam kereta dah menintis air mata, mmg aku x dpt tahan....baru kenal siapa kawan siapa lawan...ada jg manusia mcm tu kan, patut la dia da sakit jantung,ehhehhehee.....
petang msa kje, aku scan dgn MO tu...mmg x nmpk pe, dia suruh chck lg next week..tengok la kalau aku rajin..auntie yg temankan aku g klinik, rupa2nya crita kat mak my prob, pe lagi risau la org tua ni...ptg tu gak la diaorg dtg...kn dah menyusahkan org tua...tah pe la auntie crita kat diaorg, mak advise more rest, jgn angkat berat2 dulu,jgn makan sejuk2, mandi air panas....ikut jer la, tp time diaorg der d rmh,ehhehehehe...
hubbyku...mmg tau pe jd kat sini, dia pn risau kat sana, kje smua x btl, de gak dia jmp MO kat situ tny pendapat pasal masalah aku...advice doc sana, more rest, don't be stress....
since petang tu, hatiku mmg hancur...bila teringat pa dah jd, mmg air mata x dpt tahan..aku mmg sensitif..
pa2 pn yg terjadi..life must go on,semua yg berlaku dah hikmah, ujian drpd Allah S.W.T, utk insan terpilih sahaja..so be strong....terima jak ketentuan tuhan..
k la..nk rht, nk masak jap

7th July 09

diary.....aku still lum menses..yesterday dah check upt, -ve..pm yerterday der pv sporting, ingatkan menses, x der la plak..

ooh ya..mlm td der 2org suspected h1n1, so berpindah la paed wad ke female wad..dah la ward sedang2 penuh....if i'm the MO, byk yg dpt discharge sbnrnya, so far diaorg ni stable, just to complete a/b n tukar ubt baru...tu pasal dia x bg diaorg ni discharge...

actually aku ni salah sorang team standby tuk kes h1n1 ni, ari ni my day off, takut2 gak nanti de hosp call srh p kje...heehhhee...rasanya x kot, td dah tny kak josie, husbd dia kata, dia dah bgtau sis lee, to minimize staff who involve with that pt..sorang SN or sorang JM pun cukup for the time being...while waiting comformation result, plg cepat lusa..if +ve, pt tu kne refer to MGH...so selamat la...tp kan, kalau la dia lama kat sini, brg2 ppe bkn cukup tuk staff yg bertugas...hospital pedalaman, byk kurang maa...tu la cabaran..

k la der masa sambg crita lg...

5th July

morning.....i'm not really feeling well today...constipation dah 2/52 lbh...kalau x der ravin enema, x der la BO, mkn byk mne pn buah n sayur, msh gak mcm tu...sblm ni x pernah la mcm ni..blkg ni pn selalu sakit2, tp msh dpt tahan la..still boleh move around...menses dah due 3 hari...sign & symptoms of pre menses de, tp lum gak menses2..tunggu jer la, x nk la check upt dulu..tunggu dah due 1/12 br check lg.....ehhehhehee..

ari ni shift pm lg...bhn2 tuk menu lunch dah siap, tinggal nk msk jer lg...hubby br bgn, kat situ hjn, tu psl la dia lmbt bgn...ehhehhee...

ok...insya-Allah der msa i conteng2 lg k...wassalam..

3rd july 09

dear diary....x der movie best mlm ni..hhmm...taday, as usual, x der yg special happening..tiap hari lonely...me..utara benua, hubby d tengah benua, bila la nk together2, ehheehhehee....family yg risau, me & my hubby, relax jer...hehehehhee...maybe kami dah terbiasa since bercinta mmg dah berjauhan, cinta sms, haahahaa....kesinambungan drpd induksi..nk ingat msa mula2 kenal, mcm x percaya, boleh kahwin....kita x penah kuar dating, 1st time kira couple kuar dating la, bila hubby dtg jmp family, merisik, pas tu parents bagi green light kami kuar bincang masa dpn...ehehhehee...masa kursus induksi pernah kuar sama, tp sebagai kwn & dgn kwn...eh, malas la nk crite lg..esk2 sambung episod ni k...hehehehee..

yes!!! aku dah dpt letak gbr kat sblh...esok nk tmbh koleksi lg...gd nite..

another step ahead!

alhamdulillah...aku dah dpt letak gbr2 favourite ku..heheehehee...tinggal nk tukar background jer lg, too static, x happening, n nak tmbh music or animation kalau dapat...esok try lg la..my hubby pn dah blk main badminton...hehehhehee..layan hubby jap...insya Allah esok der masa sambg crta lg...mana tau kot2 der crta best esok..bye.

2nd page,testing

ok 1st dah lepas, next try....nk cr gbr2 animation tuk blog, nk buat backgound, kalau dpt, step by step,kalau x dpt ari ni, cuba esk2 lg sampai dpt,ehhehehe..actually semalam dah nk start buat blog, kira start on the 1st of July, x dpt on the 1st, 2nd pun jd laa...at least dah de kemajuan...

1st page in my blog

haii.....hehehehhehee..testing2 dapat ke x blog ni..cuba save jap, kalau menjadi so...ehhhehehe...bermulalah kisah hidupku